vocaroo:

if you ever hurt an animal on purpose you’re a fucking piece of shit

Not that many care, I’m not looking for sympathy I just need to let it out. I just found out that I may have a very rare diease in my muscles that slowly slowly will make me unable to walk, there is no cure only to help is too stop doing weights. I may have a disease in my ovaries that just makes me put on excessive weight and stuffes up my hormones.. who knows what that could lead too.. Knowing that this is happening to me and that not intentially but half of it is my fault. If i had maybe not done some of the exercise i did, will this be happening to me? Have I done this to myself? I feel fat, disgusting, i feeling like dying. I know many have it worse than me but I can’t help the way I feel atm.. Life just sucks. This truely made me realise how much people should be thankful that they are healthy.

I want to die. Why can’t it just happen. It’s not much to ask for